Strange Day

Today has been a weird day. It's my last day of grade 11 and it doesn't feel like it was my last school day and that summer is here. I was wishing summer would just come faster and now that it's here I feel like I don't want it (weird, I know). I just feel like something is missing, you know?


Today my ex played the song her by Robert Pattinson and I just wanted to bawl my eyes out. It brought back all the memories I put aside. I hate being who I am. I push people away when they get to close. By doing that I let go of someone I hold very dear to me. I was a stupid idiot and didn't realize that I had fallen in love because I refused to believe that I was capable of loving someone at that age... I thought I had gotten over him and that I was finally okay and then he played that song on the piano and every single feeling came flooding right back to. Worst part is that I had a chance to tell him how I felt but I just wanted him to be happy and I let him go which was the hardest thing I've had to do in life. I'm happy that he's with someone that puts a smile on his face but I'm sad that it's not with me...

Well that's enough babble from me.

Ta Ta for now!

-High School Nerd

Stress/Sorry/Random

Oh my god, I am soooooo sorry that I haven't posted!! Don't hurt me! *Hides behind the couch*

In all seriousness I am really sorry. I currently have finals right now and so I have been studying really hard because I am actually failing a class and I need to pass and then my other class I don't have the best teacher... We actually have 2 days of classes left and the teacher is still teaching -_-

I have actually had a lot of shit happening lately.. I had to quit my job because I was having some issues with some people and it got to the point where I came home from work almost in tears. :/ 

This year has just been so all over the place and so next year seeing as I will be in grade 12 I am determined to have a fantastic year. I am say screw you to the people who are being mean to me and only have the people who make me happy in my life. I am done with the stupid high school drama. I'm making my last year fun!! 

I've actually ordered my grad hoodie and I will be ordering my prom dress soon.

 

That's my prom dress that I will be ordering. I have fallen in love with it. At first when I saw it I loved it but I was scared to think about getting it because I have a scar that runs along my spine. I realized that I shouldn't be scared for it to show my scar. It's who I am and I shouldn't have to be scared to show apart of myself at prom.

Well I have blabbered on enough. Leave a comment and let me know if I should start a vlog.. I'm thinking about it but I don't know sooo leave your comments below! I would love some feed back!

Ta Ta for now!

-High School Nerd out!