Strange Day

Today has been a weird day. It's my last day of grade 11 and it doesn't feel like it was my last school day and that summer is here. I was wishing summer would just come faster and now that it's here I feel like I don't want it (weird, I know). I just feel like something is missing, you know?


Today my ex played the song her by Robert Pattinson and I just wanted to bawl my eyes out. It brought back all the memories I put aside. I hate being who I am. I push people away when they get to close. By doing that I let go of someone I hold very dear to me. I was a stupid idiot and didn't realize that I had fallen in love because I refused to believe that I was capable of loving someone at that age... I thought I had gotten over him and that I was finally okay and then he played that song on the piano and every single feeling came flooding right back to. Worst part is that I had a chance to tell him how I felt but I just wanted him to be happy and I let him go which was the hardest thing I've had to do in life. I'm happy that he's with someone that puts a smile on his face but I'm sad that it's not with me...

Well that's enough babble from me.

Ta Ta for now!

-High School Nerd